Hi Roger, I just signed back up again yesterday. I also have a re-occurrence (from 2008). To others I seem fine on the outside, but on the inside I am shaking. I feel like the cancer has spread to my brain, because I am walking around in a Fog. Today I will get my PET scan date, Fri. I meet my reconstruction surgeon. I don't like doing things twice! I am not brave! Radiation again...with THAT MASK...NO WAY!!! I did read your pages here. You at least you give me hope. Do you have a feeding tube?