Paddler, sorry you have to be here, and you are living through my fear. I had my surgery and have decided to hold on the rads based on 3 opinions, but I am worried that it will come back. I have already decided if it makes another appearance, it will be full rad/chemo to kill this bugger off. If you haven't already, check into it, and see a radiation oncologist who can walk you through the process.
Best wishes, and we are all here for support!