Still waiting on the "it gets better" part. Approaching fall/winter.. the holidays... a season full of firsts without my love. I have had periods of happiness, but when the sadness comes back it seems to have such force.
I do glean strength from the journey that we faced together.
I dropped in on the caregivers forum and was completely floored at the nearly 26000 views to the thread covering the last few months of the battle.
Knowing that somehow sharing all of it has helped others feels very good.
All of it wasn't for nothing.
Not sure what to do with that journey.
I do know that this place is one of few where I feel at home, even if I am not as active as I once was.