Kelly,
I am so very sorry you are facing this. It's got to be so surreal. I know the trembling shakes when scared and waiting is one of the hardest things to do...not knowing...not having a game plan.
I hope they get this plan off the ground pronto so they can stop it in its tracks.
This forum has been a dreadful place lately, with all of the recurrences and loss going on. It's got to come around in someone's favor, soon!
The good thing is that we all have each other. I cannot imagine traveling this road without all of the amazing people we have on these forums!
Big, big hugs to you,
Kerri