Hi Curly,
I personally can not speak to what you are going through, or will go through with surgery, but having been a caregiver to my mom during her battle with oral cancer, I learned a lot. She was very scared of the trach as well, and while it took a day or two to get used to, she did very well with it. Do you know how long you will have it? My mom was lucky enough to have it taken out before going home, it was removed about a 8 days after surgery, and it healed pretty quickly once she was home.
When is your surgery scheduled for?