It's not an easy treatment. But dying from this type of cancer is a horrible death as well. It's six to seven weeks of pain, for a possible (even likely - cure - since BOT cancer is very treatable with this course of therapy) it's a tough call. Cisplatin is very hard on the kidneys - my hospital actually keeps its patients receiving cis in for 24 hours on IV fluids to offset this. There are plenty of horror stories out there but everyone responds differently - I do not envy your decision. With regards to the feeds, if they are done on a pump they apparently cause less nausea. Hugs and god bless.