Donna - Maybe the doctor's first statement ("either you will die of this cancer or you will die of something else") which you found witty and honest was intended just that way to keep you from freaking out during treatment. His second statement about beating the odds I'm sure was intended to make you feel good about being in such a good place and having beat the cancer beast down and having done everything you did to bring yourself to this point. That roller-coaster is a crazy maker of emotions. It is so normal to freak out! It takes a while before we can get past the low freaking out points and be able to get back up, take the necessary healing steps, and realize that life is really good again. Hoping for good results from the biopsy and that the �lump is just a lump�! Whatever it is, you have already proven you are a fighter, an even stronger one now, and can do this!