Nate:
So sorry about your recurrence - it sucks! BUT, one of the biggest things you have going for you is your AGE. You will be so much better able to handle just about anything they do in surgery and afterwards. I'm sending a prayer your way and it'll stay with you during surgery and afterwards because I care. You are a strong person - probably just don't realize. I admire how you wouldn't stop being "suspicious" and insisted on being re-checked. Sometimes we have to fight for what our inner feelings are because we know our bodies better than anyone. Good luck and keep posting. Other posters have given you wonderful responses and advice. They're A+ in my book.
Hugs from julieann