Holy cow Israel - you have not had a good year have you? You are so young and you've been through so much. I bet it seems like once you think you're over a hurdle there's another one right in front of you. In some ways that's true - we're always getting ready for the next obstacle with this disease and being able to physically, mentally and emotionally manage it all is really hard.
I too feel like my friends and family don't understand sometimes - they just want me to be better and forget all the bad stuff that happened and pretend that there's no way it'll come back. It's kind of a form of denial if you think about - something they maybe have to do to protect themselves - kind of makes it hard on us though! I found that this site really helps me to chat with people who "get" me - I go to a head & neck cancer support group once a month at the hospital which helps too. You're not alone - but I'm not sure that anyone can really understand what you've been through like someone who's been through it. So welcome to this site - I'm glad you found us and hope that you don't feel as alone as you did before you found us!

P.S. - you have every reason to feel frustrated - this SUCKS! Do you have the results from your PET yet? Finger's crossed for clear results!