James welcome to OCF! I hope that thru your weeks of reading on the forum you have absorbed all the info about the different treatments surgery and radiation. Im sorry you went thru such a long run around. Bottom line is---are you cancer free right now? No matter where you were treated or how, the most important thing is that the cancer is gone. Everything else is small potatoes.

Cant go back and change anything that has happened. No sense in being bitter about things like the person who didnt check you in and you had to wait longer. It certainly sound like you have alot of anger towards everyone associated with your journey. Many cancer patients see therapists and take anxiety meds. Even their caregivers need those tools to recover mentally from the horrors of cancer.

I wish you all the best with your continued recovery.

Christine
SCC 6/15/07 L chk & by L molar both Stag I, age44
2x cispltn-35 IMRT end 9/27/07
-65 lbs in 2 mo, no caregvr
Clear PET 1/08
4/4/08 recur L chk Stag I
surg 4/16/08 clr marg
215 HBO dives
3/09 teeth out, trismus
7/2/09 recur, Stg IV
8/24/09 trach, ND, mandiblctmy
3wks medicly inducd coma
2 mo xtended hospital stay, ICU & burn unit
PICC line IV antibx 8 mo
10/4/10, 2/14/11 reconst surg
OC 3x in 3 years
very happy to be alive smile