I am sure that any disfigurement looks worse to you than anyone else. People are their own worst critics. My mother had neck resection, radiation, her mandible removed, over 1/2 of her tongue removed, plus some of the floor of her mouth. I think she looks pretty darn good considering everything she's been through in the last year.She thinks she looks much worse than anyone else does. I was expecting much worse than how she actually looks. I'm not sure how extensive your surgery was, but if it really bothers you enough to try and hide it, and again I'm sure it bothers you more that anyone else, have you looked into reconstructive surgery? I know that they can do quite a bit more that they could even 5 years ago.