Who do you talk to when you're frightened? Has anyone been caring for their loved one and started thinking, they're dying in front of me? I'm sorry I can't be more articulate, I just deal with fear every day and then there are the nightmares. Does anyone else feel they're caught in an endless trap of care giving and then crying into a pillow so your sick partner can't hear you?

Trish,

I started seeing a therapist when my husband’s cancer metastasized. I found that very helpful. It was suggested by my family doctor because she thought it would help me. Is there a counseling department at your hospital? They can be of great help too.

I too had some sessions with a Councellor. I cried often when not around my husband, - in the car, shower etc. I was overcome with the fear of losing him and what my life would be like as a widow.
Just talking about this to someone who was impartial helped me enormously. The Councellor made me see the whole picture, gave me options and gave me coping strategies.
We are 7 years from diagnosis now. 😀

Thank you for sharing that-- I worried I was the only one crying in the shower.