I agree with Margaret, only time is going to help - I'm no expert at this though, since my surgery was only a little over 6 months ago. I'm the type of person who doesn't have a care in the world so it takes a lot to get me down - I bounce back quickly. I just look at everything as a phase of my life and try to get the most out of everything and that has helped keep me positive through all this. You have your wedding to look forward to now so enjoy that! I was married two years ago and my husband has been amazing through all of this. Surround yourself with strong, positive people and that will help with the anxiety. I do freak out some whenever something unusual pops up, so I totally understand - remission is the hardest part because of the paranoia! And, at least you get to go to your doctors every three months - I see my ENT every 6 weeks!!! Haha, but that is standard and eventually you should get to every 6 months.