For me, the only cure for the fear was/is time. I was treated for a Non-Hodgkin's lymphoma when I was 28 and it took years for me to not worry that every little thing that went wrong with me might be a sign that the cancer had come back. Good for you for finding a therapist, and honestly, I can't imagine how hard planning a wedding would be in addition to all of this! Yikes.

Stage IV SCC lt lateral tongue, surgery 5/19/08 (partial gloss/upper neck dissection left side/radial free flap reconstruction) IMRT w/weekly Cisplatin & Erbitux 6/30/08, PEG 1 6/12/08 - out 7/14 (in abdominal wall, not stomach), PEG 2 7/23/08 - out 11/20/08, Tx done 8/18/08
Second SCC tumor, Stage 1, rt mobile tongue, removed 10/18/2016, right neck dissection 12/9/2016
Third SCC tumor, diagnosed, 4/19/2108, rt submandibular mass, HPV-, IMRT w/ weekly Cisplatin, 5/9 - 6/25/2018, PEG 3 5/31/2018