Thank you Anne for the information you shared with me! I am glad you told me about the xray bit and I will look up squamous cell carcinoma. I will ask him about it as well. I am so afraid right now. I keep looking in my mouth and running my tongue around there. The spot is rough but when I look at it, I don't see anything! I do smoke and am just starting to prepare myself for my quit. It just isn't worth living like this in fear all the time. I want so bad to be free of this addiction. I used to be a heavy drinker but with the help of Jesus Christ, I have cut my drinking down drastically and am really considering abstaining altogether. I am a new Christian and I just don't want to be a slave to anything anymore.

I so hope that I am wrong, that I don't have cancer. I feel like I'm just starting to understand what life is all about and I really don't want this kind of battle right now. I'm afraid of dying in my 30's....

I am really afraid.