Just to clarify, my comments weren't meant to yank you back..... but now as an older, more seasoned observer, who has fought in wars against others, who has survived helicopter crashes, plane crashes, auto accidents, cancer and other diseases, and more.... it is not that I do not believe that anyone of these could be the end, just that I do not intend to quit, go quietly, or lose hope that the future is bright and awaiting me. I think that the analogy that I like the best, is that we are like a piece of raw marble when we are born. Life chisels at us with sharp blows, many deep and painful, chipping away bits of us in the process, to finally reveal the person we really are. Cancer is one more of life's blows that define and shape us; perhaps more so than those who did not fight for life itself. No one grows without adversity in his or her life. There are literally millions of cancer survivors living in the US today. That fact alone helps me to believe that I too will go on. I just came back from filming a one-hour interview with the Lance Armstrong Foundation on survivorship. Listening to the many stories of survivorship there only strengthened my resolve that I will continue on.