Ok friends (and I mean that) I consider myself properly spanked.

Read the above posts. Remembered the times when I've done some incredibly stupid things in cars, or should have been on an airliner that crashed but wasn't, or just have taken a lot of rides in a Dongguan taxi (probably the most dangerous activity of the bunch). All things that could cause my premature demise other than cancer, and I find worrying about what "might" happen, and letting it work it's way into my thoughts is, just as Brian said, wasting my time.

In day to day life, I try not to let this get to me, no one really wants to hear about it all the time anyway. Some things are just fact and are there, shoulder strength shot to heck, I don't drink anymore and I tend to threaten smokers with the fire extinguisher. But I also tend to do things I maybe wouldn't have if I hadn't gotten this disease, such as body surf, ride elephants, eat some pretty strange foods.

I suppose it is all what you make it, probably at that time and moment, just allowed some negative thoughts to come in that I shouldn't have.

Still don't know where the heck I'm going to retire to though.

Thanks again for the "jolt" Joanna, Brian and Karen.

Bob