Yes to the previous posts: although we always talk about living one day at a time, it doesn't mean that we have no hope for the future no matter how uncertain it may be. I do set a long term goal for myself and that is to write a book after my retirement from my present job about my experience of fighting cancer and depression, which hopefully can give other cancer patients, especially those with stage 4, some positive insight. I am talking about a plan that will be implemented at least six years later from now. Can I live that long given the seriousness of my cancer? Only God knows. This is something beyond my or my doctors' control. So why worry about it?

Karen stage 4 tonsil cancer diagnosed in 9/01.