thank you Christine.

I have the nurse calling me today as I'm having an allergic reaction to all those chemicals in him. I am highly sensitive to chemicals and spent years sick because of them...my brother had the same problem, daughter as well. Of course, to the husband, I'm overreacting and making it up. I kept thinking about how itchy I was every time I drove him to treatment, itchy to the point of raw skin on my face and hands and after his comment about how chemicals are making him queasy, I thought.....I don't use chemicals in my house for this reason. He must be smelling himself. As a realtor, unfortunately we are having to deal with this in our clients to the point of several nearly passing out when entering certain homes. Another realtor and I scope out the houses now to warn the realtors which houses have chemicals and mold...we are reactive so quickly.

Anyway, this does not help the situation knowing I am physically suffering as well and that he will not wash down things after using them so it's become an extra thing I have to take care of for my daughter and I.

I have to remind myself that I did not invite this crazy into my life. He made decades of bad choices and now it's thrust upon me as well.

Sad to say I look forward to having to work tonight and going to my Bible study to get out of the house but I am so looking forward to some normal for a change even a couple of hours. Between the itching like crazy (like poison ivy all over) and his angry tones for normal stuff, it's going to be a long long haul ahead. This group is truly helping me keep on a more even keel than I would have been.