I am finally going for a FNA biopsy tomorrow of the lymph node in my neck. Everything seems to be moving in slow-motion. After tomorrow, I have to wait until Oct. 30th for results. It has been 8 months since I had all of the symptoms, including this swollen node. So many doctors have said "it's only 1cm, so it's not important". It makes me want to scream now that I finally realize that is meaningless, and none of them suggested getting a biopsy on it. Of course, I blame myself the most...I just kept assuming the doctors knew best.

I guess there are no particular suggestions you might have about the FNA or questions I should ask, but if you have any, please let me know.

I'm fully convinced that it is cancerous. I have high risk HPV, and the lymph node is so hard and seems to be attached to one side deep on my tongue. The only thing is, no doctor has been able to see problems when scoping my throat...I cannot understand it. I'm concerned there is no primary.

It's really hard being in Japan, but I don't think my insurance here would cover me in the US, otherwise I would be at Johns Hopkins in a minute, since it is near where I live.

Anyway, I know this forum is really for supporting people with confirmed diagnoses, and I am not quite there yet. But I will lean on your advice a lot if I am.

Thanks for listening.