The mouthwashes are doing ok, but not anything to write home about ya know? Um...I went in to oncology last wednsday and two other doctors/surgeons from MD Anderson looked at me and said "hang in there!" and I told them I still was only sleeping a few hours of sleep and it still throbbed and got extremely dry and stiff.

They prescribed me morphine and that has done nothing but make me even more irritable, extremely constipated and even difficult to urinate. Still wake up through the night, surgery just days away and I am literally just trying to tough this one out and not try and take it out on Korinne so much.

But the medecine makes me jumpy and all junkie feeling and I still hurt. I can only get the lidocaine to numb it long enough to sleep for about 45 mins, Im just in bed longer to make up for it. Having alot of verbal warfare with close friends and Korinne an am just tired of it. I will say one thing crazy is that days have just flown by, I did not realize how long it was since my last post. Thanks All!! Much Love...

Nathan