Hi All,
I am 36m straight, have been sick (Strep throat) 2 months ago and when opening my mouth I saw a white thing that the doctor later said its Papilloma.
I had 3 doctors tell me its nothing to worry, they say I can choose to remove it, or leave it as is and it might disappear in the future (I'm going to remove it, because I can't tolerate the thought it in my throat) but I'm here very close to a breakdown after I have seen it causes throat cancer. It made me so anxious I had a panic attack last week where I couldn't breath almost went to the ER.
The doctors didn't say its
HPV specifically just that its benign, non cancerous, and one of them said its not an STD. Not sure if its to calm me down or there could be other types of it. In any case I only been with 3 women these last 2 years. 2 one night stands (Protected, some oral). One for few months but we broke up.
I have never heard of
HPV up until now and google screwed me up completely. Everyone around me says I behave like I'm about to die next week. I have dropped 12pounds in a week and I can't do anything at work besides being concerned than I'm about to die and if not now, I will be scared of throat cancer for the rest of my life. I don't wanna live like that.
I have always been ultra careful about these things (Elite hypochondriac + HIV paranoid) but apparently not enough.
I doubt I'll engage at any sexual contact anytime soon even with condom. Never going to do Oral sex ever again unless I'm married. My anxiety is through the roof at the moment. This is definitely the worst episode I have had in my life. Can anyone suggest how to get out of this?
Thanks a lot, any help would be appreciated.