Curt,

Look it's very NORMAL to have a hard time processing all of this. Post Tx depression in varying stages is quite common in OC patients. Some process it themselves and some need professional assistance as we are all different. You mentally, your body physically and all your caregivers have been through hell so just take one day at a time. Forget the recurrence possiblities, it's most likely never going to happen and even if it does there's nothing you can do to prevent it so why worry. Concentrate on your recovery which can and very well may take all of 2 years. Eat, eat and eat more at least for the next year as your body needs a tremendous amount of fuel to complete it's recovery. Feel good that you are cancer free and the treatment phase is history so look forward to discovering the new post cancer you.

Congrats!!


David

Age 58 at Dx, HPV16+ SCC, Stage IV BOT+2 nodes, non smoker, casual drinker, exercise nut, Cisplatin x 3 & concurrent IMRT x 35,(70 Gy), no surgery, no Peg, Tx at Moffitt over Aug 06. Jun 07, back to riding my bike 100 miles a wk. Now doing 12 Spin classes and 60 outdoor miles per wk. Nov 13 completed Hilly Century ride for Cancer, 104 miles, 1st Place in my age group. Apr 2014 & 15, Spun for 9 straight hrs to raise $$ for YMCA's Livestrong Program. Certified Spin Instructor Jun 2014.