Please don't give up. You can do this. I know you can. God is with us every moment, every second, through every single step. Just give it all up to him. That's what I try and do. I just try and let it go, hand it over to him so I don't have to worry about it. I literally tell myself "I don't have any idea what to do with this Father. Here... you deal with it" It helps me. God bless you. With all my love and hope and faith for you.