I don't really want to expound too much because my Uptown reads these posts, but there are some things possibly going on with his wellness and I'd really appreciate it if you folks will pray or do whatever your religious belief encourages while we "hurry up and wait" to see if the stuff happening is just stuff happening or if the shoe's about to drop.

I've decided that it isn't inappropriate for me to say I'm an emotional weakling right now. I almost got used to things being okay and stuff started looking up...possibility of job, scholarship(ish) to go to school...

I love that silly goose so much I can't imagine the what if...

Thanks for just being there to encourage us all and to have a safe place to admit you're scared without being ridiculed. Yes, I know worry doesn't change a thing but prayer sure does!

Susan

Dear Susan
We all know the fear you are dealing with...and you are no wimp girl. We would be silly not to worry, even though we tell each other not to!
That hubby of yours is such a generous guy with his time, and, always goes out of his way to try and answer any and all questions on the board.
He is in our prayers, Big Time!
Much love to you both
Marica

Susan, praying is one of the things we do real well here. We all have lots of practice at it for the whole board as well as for our own issues. Of course we will continue praying. I will add you to the list also as I'm sure the love is returned and you need His strength as well. Whatever the issues, just remember it isn't anything til the pathologist says it is. And if it is, you'll both deal with it as you need to. And we will be here to help you get through it. God bless you both.

Dear Susan,
There are so many wonderful people who need help and many Angels who help others that are found on this site & I believe we are guided to each other when we need to be in touch.
I and my family will pray for you & yours.
Take care
Maria

Susan,
I'm not a particularly "prayerful" person, but I sure will be sending positive energy, good vibes, rainbows, pom-poms and anything else you want to call it.......to both you and Ed. You are both such special people. Do your worrying now and get it out of the way, because we all know this is a false alarm. All is fine and will continue to stay that way. Quite simply, the forum can't afford to lose you guys and your valuable input, so you are both here to stay! We're not giving you any other choice!!!

Seriously, I fervently hope this stuff is just stuff, but you are entitled to worry and fret all you want. It's just the nature of the beast and you're not getting brownie points for being strong and stoic, so use our collective OCF shoulders to lean on as much as you want.

Rainbows & all that other good stuff winging its way to you both,
Rosie

Susan, you have got it, no need to place the order for you are all on prayer lists all over this great land of ours. You are in mine all thru out the day and night. I am a believer in GOD and of the prayer, just because you don't see them, doesn't mean they aren't answered. Gosd Bless you both,, and you are not a WHIMP, honey look at what WE ALL have been thru. If anything we are STRONG as HELL. There are so many that couldn't handle all this...WE are all very very SPECIAL PEOPLE...I BELIEVE THIS AND SO SHOULD YOU,,always Miss Vicki

Susan, please read below and read it each night until they tell us that Ed is just fine.

I am in a hurricane right now.
I've been here before.
And I survived.
I am not alone.
God is with me.
My faith sustains me.
It has never failed me.
I'll come through this.
I am strong.
I am loved.
This too will pass

Take care,
Minnie

Susan,
Ed's a great guy. He's definitly in my thoughts, as are you. You are by no means an emotional weakling. Ed is lucky to have you. All of my best wishes to both of you.
D

Susan,

I really think that this diesese has all of paranoid of every little thing that changes. I am here for both of you and I love you both dearly. My prayers are with you.....

Big Hugs,
Dani

Susan
Wimp, no way girl.. no-one on this forum would ever think that, and yep we all can turn worrying into a world championship event..
So prayers, good vibes, and lots of hugs to you both..
love and stay in the sunshine..
Helen

Susan,
Stuff will keep happening and I know that this is hard to do, but ruining your health worrying about it will not make the problem go away. I hate waiting as much as anyone but we cannot let this disease consume our lives and spirits. You already know several of us who have survived reoccurences or in my case a completely new occurrence. Don't assume that a bad dx is a death sentence cause it ain't. His dr is watching this carefully and told him to do the same. Here's hoping it is only stuff.

While, like Rosie, I am not religious, I do send you and Ed all the good vibes and postive energy I can muster. Pull the plug on that computer at night and forget about cancer for a while. There are much more pleansnt things to do. Meanwhile, go find me that stuffed cabbage recipe you promised me in Vegas.

Take care,
Eileen

Oh, my gosh! I got sucked right into stinking thinking and TOTALLY forgot about the stuffed cabbage recipe!

Thank you (everyone - no exceptions) for the love and encouragement. Tomorrow is the day to verify it is nothing and if it isn't "nothing" I'm praying it's nothing much. You know it's like water torture some times. The slow drip on your strength, erroding any resistance you have. Never had any recurrence before so I guess I just better stop ANTICIPATING recurrence and get on with life. (Where did it go over the last year and a half?)

Only good juju for tomorrow! I'm pulling the plug for tonight.

Hugs to all!

Susan

Ed & Susan,

I will be saying many extra prayers for you tommorrow.....

Love & Huge Hugs,

Dani

Susan!
I pray that tangled knot of discomfort lurking inside you is untwisted today. It is such a burden to carry discontent, and you can't consider yourself a wimp.

I'll be waiting along with everyone else to hear good news after your appointment.

Love,
Nicki

Scrippity doooooo! I was all a bunch of pooooh!

I didn't go with Ed (and it was killing me, but he didn't ask so I didn't offer until he was walking out the door). I don't know the doctor's exact words but what I heard when Ed called with an update was (this is what I could hear Dr. Sinard saying), "You're not the only guy showing up here freaking out over lumps and things. Come any time you feel like something's not right... Oh, wait a second! I've got an idea! Let me feel around your neck and tell you what I feel then you feel around and tell/show me what you feel. Don't get too worried until I get worried. You're too soon out of the PET for multiple nodes to appear out of nowhere without SOMETHING appearing on the scan. Your body is doing things it never had to do because it never had radiation, chemo before and your body is having so many changes - hang in there - you're doing fine, see you in 7 weeks if you don't freak out before then." Maybe Ed heard something a little more coherent.

Thank you everyone! Like Ed said before he rang off, "I guess I'll just go to work then." (and he's having a second interview for a serious opportunity tomorrow - first time in a mega long time (4 yrs) that we/he may be close to having "normal" in our house.) Pray, pray, pray. Good juju! Only good juju!

I love you guys!

Susan
(with a Groucho nose so no one will recognize it's really me being so goofy)

Yeh Way to Go Girl...Enjoy your day.. Relax.. chillout..
Stay in the Sunshine...
love and big hugs
Helen

Hi Susan,
I get all kinds of lumps on my lower neck but they're always knotted muscles, which is very common for people on a computer a lot. Stress and tension don't help either - but the enlarged lymph node scare resurfaces from time to time as a result of it. I wish my doctor had a device where you could feel the difference between a knotted muscle and a lymph node.

By the way "juju" is based on voodoo and witchcraft -I am not sure that you want to summon the "powers of darkness" for Ed's condition. :p

Susan, glad to hear that things turned out ok. I don't recall ever going into the doc's, or a scan where I didn't think I had multiple recurrances. One time I counted 7 possiblilties. Of course the scan came back clean.

I wish my wive could have made it to the Vegas get together and could have met all the other caregivers so she could know that others feel the same way she does sometimes about this experience. Maybe next year.

So now time to enjoy and look toward the future.

Bob

Susan,
Glad it turned out to be nothing, but it is always good to have any abnormality checked out. I make Charlie go with me to all my appointments. Seems the only time he doesn't go, my 'stuff' turns out to be bad news or the dr finds something suspicicous. He's my good luck charm.

Now go hug that loveable Ed and the two of you go out and celebrate.

Take care,
Eileen

Susan!

Such good news to hear!! A toast to you both this morning and a collective sigh of relief!! Have Ed check out Amgen here in the Seattle area. Here they are hiring. Love - Kris