Help/Advice Please - 09-17-2015 06:32 PM
Hi there, I've posted once before after my fathers surgery which took place in May earlier this year. Just here for some caregiver support/advice-I am at my wits end/desperate and I don't know what do to.
I am the primary caregiver for my father who is currently undergoing radiation therapy for base of tongue cancer. At this time, he has 6 treatments left to go . We do have a family friend that also helps out with the caregiving that lives closer (b/c I live 45 minutes away), so that is a big help, but I am there every day checking up on him & driving him to his treatments, paying bills, coordinating his care, etc.
One issue is with my sister (who also lives in the area) but does not provide any support whatsoever and is so blind to the situation that she feels that it is OK to move 16 hours away in 2 weeks. So of course I am mad, angry and resentful about that-we used to be close but now i'm not even speaking to her for what she is doing to me & my dad-as I know he is upset/sad about this but wont talk about it.
Another issue is with my dad himself...I do know that all of this is very hard for him, and I cannot possibly even begin to understand what he is going through, but he continues to not follow doctor advice, continues to smoke and he has started abusing alcohol (vodka). He is what I could call a functional alcoholic before the cancer, but since all of this, his drinking has gotten way out of control. Its a very sad story and having to watch him do this to himself.
At this point, I don't know how much more of this I can take, as he continues to self medicate on top of the medication (anti-anxiety, pain) that the doctor has prescribed for him. Its a very dangerous situation, and his drinking has only gotten worse. I've tried everything I could think of to get him to stop (let him know how badly it was affecting me, his health and his treatment), but he doesn't see that there is a problem. I've also suggested he go to counseling but he wont have any of it. I think that he feels like the drinking/smoking is one of the few things left that he has to enjoy.
Its getting to the point where I cannot take it anymore, the constant worry, picking him up off the floor (yes, he's fallen several times from drinking/lack of sleep). Its like everyday is a new crisis or issue to deal with...either he fell, hurt him self doing something he shouldn't be doing (lifting heavy objects) or giving the family friend (my ray of light in all of this since she is the only one helping) a difficult time. He is a stubborn person to begin with and getting him to realize his limitations & the importance of rest and taking care of himself right now is next to impossible. I am at my wits end...I think that if he doesn't care enough to take care of himself then why should I, as this is starting to affect me in a negative way (excessively missing work, not sleeping/eating, depression). But then I think that I am being selfish, and I just cannot leave him to fend on his own, especially given that he is going through so much right now.
I'm already on sleeping medication as a result (they dont help) and am thinking about going to counseling to help deal with all of this...just a matter of finding the time b/c everything is so focused on him right now.
Just looking for some advice or words of wisdom. He really is a good person, and it hurts so much to see him go through this. I don't know what to do.
I am the primary caregiver for my father who is currently undergoing radiation therapy for base of tongue cancer. At this time, he has 6 treatments left to go . We do have a family friend that also helps out with the caregiving that lives closer (b/c I live 45 minutes away), so that is a big help, but I am there every day checking up on him & driving him to his treatments, paying bills, coordinating his care, etc.
One issue is with my sister (who also lives in the area) but does not provide any support whatsoever and is so blind to the situation that she feels that it is OK to move 16 hours away in 2 weeks. So of course I am mad, angry and resentful about that-we used to be close but now i'm not even speaking to her for what she is doing to me & my dad-as I know he is upset/sad about this but wont talk about it.
Another issue is with my dad himself...I do know that all of this is very hard for him, and I cannot possibly even begin to understand what he is going through, but he continues to not follow doctor advice, continues to smoke and he has started abusing alcohol (vodka). He is what I could call a functional alcoholic before the cancer, but since all of this, his drinking has gotten way out of control. Its a very sad story and having to watch him do this to himself.
At this point, I don't know how much more of this I can take, as he continues to self medicate on top of the medication (anti-anxiety, pain) that the doctor has prescribed for him. Its a very dangerous situation, and his drinking has only gotten worse. I've tried everything I could think of to get him to stop (let him know how badly it was affecting me, his health and his treatment), but he doesn't see that there is a problem. I've also suggested he go to counseling but he wont have any of it. I think that he feels like the drinking/smoking is one of the few things left that he has to enjoy.
Its getting to the point where I cannot take it anymore, the constant worry, picking him up off the floor (yes, he's fallen several times from drinking/lack of sleep). Its like everyday is a new crisis or issue to deal with...either he fell, hurt him self doing something he shouldn't be doing (lifting heavy objects) or giving the family friend (my ray of light in all of this since she is the only one helping) a difficult time. He is a stubborn person to begin with and getting him to realize his limitations & the importance of rest and taking care of himself right now is next to impossible. I am at my wits end...I think that if he doesn't care enough to take care of himself then why should I, as this is starting to affect me in a negative way (excessively missing work, not sleeping/eating, depression). But then I think that I am being selfish, and I just cannot leave him to fend on his own, especially given that he is going through so much right now.
I'm already on sleeping medication as a result (they dont help) and am thinking about going to counseling to help deal with all of this...just a matter of finding the time b/c everything is so focused on him right now.
Just looking for some advice or words of wisdom. He really is a good person, and it hurts so much to see him go through this. I don't know what to do.