Trying to get my Brian to hang on. - 06-08-2007 10:09 PM
Hi
My Brian is now in the hospital for the 4th time in 2 mths, with pneumonia infections from merca and aspiration. And now he has blood clots in his lungs and leg. They are treating it with blood thinners which make me nervous because of the bleed he had in october from the radiation which had eroded a vessel near his tonsil. Ever since the bleed it has been very difficult for Brian. they said that blood clots are sometimes more pron in cancer patients and also his nutrition is poor so that may be a factor. Bu hers the thing I think Brians tired of fighting, it was a year memorial day wknd that he new something was wrong not diagnosed till June 06. I think his body is telling him that enough is enough. I don't want to lose him. I keep telling him to hang on he made it threw the bleed which the Drs say is a miracle. But we have 2 children ages 19 and 16 he just turned 50. Its not time for him to go. But I see it in his eyes he's so very tired. I am so proud of the battle he has fought I don't want this damn cancer to win. they told me his long term prognosis is not good with every thing his body has been through.. But I can't give up on him. I just don't no what to do anymore.I guestion everything the drs do. I hate to leave him alone in the hospital. But I have to continue some normal routine for my daughter and son who are having such a difficult time.
Thanks
For listening.
My Brian is now in the hospital for the 4th time in 2 mths, with pneumonia infections from merca and aspiration. And now he has blood clots in his lungs and leg. They are treating it with blood thinners which make me nervous because of the bleed he had in october from the radiation which had eroded a vessel near his tonsil. Ever since the bleed it has been very difficult for Brian. they said that blood clots are sometimes more pron in cancer patients and also his nutrition is poor so that may be a factor. Bu hers the thing I think Brians tired of fighting, it was a year memorial day wknd that he new something was wrong not diagnosed till June 06. I think his body is telling him that enough is enough. I don't want to lose him. I keep telling him to hang on he made it threw the bleed which the Drs say is a miracle. But we have 2 children ages 19 and 16 he just turned 50. Its not time for him to go. But I see it in his eyes he's so very tired. I am so proud of the battle he has fought I don't want this damn cancer to win. they told me his long term prognosis is not good with every thing his body has been through.. But I can't give up on him. I just don't no what to do anymore.I guestion everything the drs do. I hate to leave him alone in the hospital. But I have to continue some normal routine for my daughter and son who are having such a difficult time.
Thanks
For listening.