Super scared.. - 08-17-2013 07:55 AM
Hello everyone,
My name is Theresa. I am 34 years old and just got home from the hospital after having a tumor removed from my tongue as well as a neck dissection. I am in quite a bit of pain and can't sleep so thats why I am on here. I am having a hard time eating and drinking still (I had my surgery Tuesday) and my neck hurts but I dont think that is why I am awake. I was told that in 3 weeks I will have to go through 7 weeks of radiation and that is terrifying. I know that I will loose most of my teeth ( I will look terrible) and I really do not want to go through radiation. I know I have to. I dont want to die or get cancer worse again (I have 4 kids to think about) but I cant seem to get over this fear. I dont know what to do. I want to run away. I feel like my life will not get back to normal now, and that is a lot to take in. I dont know when I will talk more normal again or be able to eat more normal again. I feel sad and depressed about everything. I swear my dr said that the path report came back clear...which confuses me on to why I still need the radiation. I think everything coming all at once is just overwhelming. I want my mouth back. I want to eat and do the things I was doing on monday. Will I get better? Will I talk more normal again and eat more food again? How long will it take? UGH. Its all so much information to take in. I should have radiation right? I DO NOT want to do through a worse surgery or die. Please give me some insight on what my life will be. I am super scared and sad
My name is Theresa. I am 34 years old and just got home from the hospital after having a tumor removed from my tongue as well as a neck dissection. I am in quite a bit of pain and can't sleep so thats why I am on here. I am having a hard time eating and drinking still (I had my surgery Tuesday) and my neck hurts but I dont think that is why I am awake. I was told that in 3 weeks I will have to go through 7 weeks of radiation and that is terrifying. I know that I will loose most of my teeth ( I will look terrible) and I really do not want to go through radiation. I know I have to. I dont want to die or get cancer worse again (I have 4 kids to think about) but I cant seem to get over this fear. I dont know what to do. I want to run away. I feel like my life will not get back to normal now, and that is a lot to take in. I dont know when I will talk more normal again or be able to eat more normal again. I feel sad and depressed about everything. I swear my dr said that the path report came back clear...which confuses me on to why I still need the radiation. I think everything coming all at once is just overwhelming. I want my mouth back. I want to eat and do the things I was doing on monday. Will I get better? Will I talk more normal again and eat more food again? How long will it take? UGH. Its all so much information to take in. I should have radiation right? I DO NOT want to do through a worse surgery or die. Please give me some insight on what my life will be. I am super scared and sad