Hi all,

I am a little nervous about my scan on the 18th,. This will be my first since treatment.

I just want it to be ok, because my husband just can't take to much more. All of this has been real hard on him.

It has been hard on me too. As you all know. I can only hope for the best. I guess I worry because I thought we got it the first time with the tounge 2004. So I know it can come back.

I am getting more up tight as time gets closer.

Yet I want to know too. It is a mixed emotions at this point. I am sure this is all normal.

I have one prayer I say to my self all the time it helps. Here it is "Thank You God for what I have and Thank You God for what I don't have"

I started that prayer when I was about 25. Many years ago. It helps on anything.

Ok, I just wanted a place to vent...... sorry
bye for now. DM

Hang in there DM , all will be well. If some prayer help to comfort so be it, I am not an overtly religious person but I pray when I feel the need. Anything that can bring comfort and peace of mind is a good thing. Because only knows that in our situation there are plenty of times that anxiety raises its ugly head. I pray for strength to handle anything that is thrown my way. This thing that we have hanging over our heads sure can be tough sometimes. Be strong DM all is well.
always lenny

Hi DM, I have just started my journey and I can only imagine how anxious you are right now. Prayer has helped me so much through all of this, and I know what a strain it can be on your Husband. I go to dailyword.com everyday and pray quietly and it seems to help.
Keep up your strength...better days are ahead!!

Molly

HI DM,

it is normal to be nervous. I'm sure we all were or are when it comes to the scans. I pray that yours is clear like mine.

During my treatment, I was on several prayer circles from both coasts. I'm sure it helped. I hope you post soon and tell us the results. My thoughts, prayers and concerns are with you.

Steve Daib

Thank you everyone for your support. I will let you know how it comes out.

I think the reason I am so up tight is that my experience with Chemo & radiation were not good.

When I was in radiation the gal that started me pin me down to tight and I could not breath. This happen for the first 3 days. I started having anxiety attacks. Which I had never had before. Then they switched her out & a different gal took over. She was better, but it still was hard to go through.

My Chemo was fine for the frist one. Then the 2nd one was hard on me. I was in hospital off & on the first week. They could not give me the 3rd cause it would kill me.

So this is why I am a little nervious about it. I just have to learn to face what ever comes.

Thanks DM

DM,
Everybody is nervous during the first scans so you are not alone. It is also VERY common for the scans to be read and interpreted in such a manner that they won't be black and white in their findings (my first scans drove me crazy). Do NOT let this discourage you or add more fear. Scans are only a small part of the total diagnostic package. I didn't have a clean MRI for almost a year.

They should have given you meds for anxiety - most of us got them. It wouldn't hurt you to have them now either. You will have less angst the further you get from this.


My chemo experience was also the same as yours - They had to shorten it by one (I tell myself because I responded SO WELL to treatment). I am three years+ cancer free today and doing great. So will you.

Hang in there.

DM-
I wish you the best of luck with your scan- please remember that God will be right by your side.

It will be a good thing...it will be a good thing
it will be a good thing. You are going to feel so good when you get your results!
Marica

Hi All !

Yes, good news it was cancer FREE !
I held my breath as he gaves us the results.
I go back again in 3 months.

Now for the bad news. I had hearing test done. Due to chemo & radiation I have had hearing loss. It may improve some, but the chances I guess are slim. I am going to hope for improvement! I will not know for sure untill another 3 months.(give it a chance to heal some more)If I should have any more Chemo it will wipe it out. Lucky for me I do know sign Language!!!

Gary I never have received any Meds. for Depression or Anxiety. I have always just went through it. Never gave it a thought. I guess I was to busy taking other pills, brushing teeth, getting sick to think about it. Ha ha!

I want to thank all of you who have given me support getting ready for 1st scan. Thank You! Thank YOU! Ps. it was a long day
DM

DM-
WONDERFUL!!!
I am so happy for you!!!
You should be so proud of yourself for getting thru this!

Congratulations on the great news! It is a powerful feeling isn't it. Go with it, feel it, cherish it and give thanks! Most importantly, try to remember this when you go for your next one.

Yes, the hearing loss does temper the good news abit. I have read that there can be some hearing loss, hopefully in your case as with some it is minimal.

Congrats on the clean scan and sorry to hear about the hearing loss. Given that the chemo did that to you, it's good they stopped it when they did. I also was only able to have two chemos and so far I'm good......

Nelie