So I am doing well for the most part. Today I am just really down in the dumps. To the point that if anyone looks at me wrong I am going to cry. I can't handle these sores that pop up in my mouth and then go away. I am glad they go away, but I wish they would never come up. ARGH! Work is stressful, and I often forget that i can not talk as fast as I used to. I have to slow down and really think about what I am going to say. I have no idea why all of a sudden I am having these emotions pop up. I hate it. Thanks for letting me vent.

Angelia, that's what we're here for - plus a few hugs if you need them. Hopeing those sores appear less and less and someday, you will notice that they aren't showing up at all anymore!
Hugs Angelia! Warmly, JaneP

Hi Angelina,

We can all relate to having those days where we are down in the dumps, and I know it stinks when these days happen. I do just what you are doing and vent then I go to bed. As most of the people here know...I am an advocate of venting and letting yourself have those crappy days because they are going to happen. I bet you will wake up tomorrow and feel like a new woman. When you leave for work in the morning, put on some good music, put the windows down and sing. That's what I do!!

((((Angelia))))

Angelia, I always have dry mouth until I get to talking too much. LOL Then I slobber and need a towel almost. Poor person that is in front of me gets a shower from a dry mouth. It gets frustrating.

Oh Angelia, wish I could give you a hug. Hang in there girl, things will get better x

Angelia,
can only but imagine how you might feel & what you are going through, but these days my imagination is pretty good, hugs & cuddles from me too....

J

Thanks guys. Things are going well now. Actually two weeks ago I decided to start working out in the mornings. I am now walking two miles during the week and four miles on the weekends. I feel so much better than I ever have before. I have a lot more energy and my spirits are high like I can handle anything. I wish someone would have told me to do this a year ago. Oh wait they did, I just didn't believe them.

You go girlfriend!!

I see you have done a 4 mile walk not long ago Angelia.
Best medicine for down in the dumps
Will take my knee pain meds soon and see what I can do

Angeleia:
Thanks for posting your feelings. I've been hesitate to voice my worries, but you've made it seem a lot easier.

You, all of us, have been through a lot physically and emotionally, so accept those down days. Having friends who have had the same experiences really helps to lift your spirts.
I'm glad you came here.

It might also be nice to look for a support group locally. Here in VA, we have a support orgization which has all different types of classes. I'm thinking about signing up for some so that I can meet other cancer survivors. You may want to look into that also.

Congratulations on your clear 7/9 Pet Scan. Try not to worry for awhile. Please continue to share when you need to...
Sandyst

I know that your post was a couple of days ago and this may be corny for you but I thought I would share, whenever my mom would have a day like that I would sing the song from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory-Cheer up Charlie. It is something that she would say to me and she told me that if I wasnt there and she had a bad day she would think of that and it would make her smile.

It might not be a song it could be just about anything that you could think of just to get you over the hump. I witnessed first hand the depression and anxiety that comes along with this disease. It is relentless, hang in there!!!

Angelia
I'm glad to see your are doing better.
You may doubt me but, if you go back and read your posts you will see the same progression and success that I have.
It ain't easy!!
It's different for every person but, we are all here for you!!
Vent, laugh, cry spit or whatever...it's all part of recovery.
If just one thing is better tomorrow than today that is a good thing.
If I can offer any help or suggestions just ask.
Cheers,
Mike

Hey Mike longtime no see how the hell are you?

Cookey
As they say in the woods, " Busier than a 3 peckered owl!"
Glad to hear from you now give me back the owl.. Hehe
Cheers,
Mike

Hey Sandy,
Where is Va are you?
I am in Roanoke, Va
Just curious.
Good to hear from you
Debbie

Debbie:
It would be nice if we were closer, but I'm just outside of Washington DC. However, talk to your onocology nurse; she probably knows of some support groups in your area.

Sandyst

My youngest son's best friend is finishing up his residency in Columbus Ohio and then him and his wife are moving to Roanoke Va permanently, The Hospital there gave him a great offer.

Dr. Mike, Thanks for that. I know that I continue to freak out every time I have a little sore or even sometimes a sore throat. I don't want to bombard my dentist with every little thing. I have gotten to where I will wait a few days and see how it feels. Most of the time they are gone within three days. some of them take a week. I have another 2 month check in two weeks and I think I get more nervous the closer it gets. I know, I am craxy. Life at my house has been crazy as well. Have not been on here as much since school started back and I am back to work.

Hi Angelina...first of all, you are NOT crazy. Normal? Yes...crazy? No....we all get nervous before are appointments in the beginning. We need time to have several appointments when they tell us everything looks good before that nervous feeling goes away. I'm still nervous, that's for sure!!

Just remember you have gone through a lot and you are a strong woman, give yourself some credit. How are things going at work for you? I hope nobody is saying stupid things to you anymore...I'm going to need to write a letter to them if they keep it up!!

Just keep your held high and remember that you're awesome:)

xoxo

Work is wonderful. I am so busy that the days go by so fast. I also got a promotion. I am not the department chair for special ed at the school and am supervisor of 7 other special ed teachers. When do I ever get to do "my" job which would be actually teaching, who knows. I love it, but am exhausted at the end of the day.
My ear has started to hurt again and O have had off and on pain in my jaw area. So when I got back for my check I will let them know. Kind of make me nervous, but I try not to think about it.

I think I will blame the same problems on a weather change. LOL

It's the weather. LOL. I hope it is that easy.

Way to go....maybe I should try that to get myself up and out of this terrible depression that has hit me lately.

Congrats on the promotion. I personally always blame the weather. If it's cold and rainy I always feel like crap. Nothing like sitting in the warm sunshine to make you feel better.