Pat,
you really are ok. What you are feeling is normal and expected. I would be more concerned if you didn't feel this way. As others have already said, you must take care of yourself as this will be the hardest time of all. The month or 2 post Tx is very hard. The effects from radiation keep on building and healing is very slow. His pain meds may put him on the edge so he might even be delusional or abusive. Make sure that you utilize family and your support network to help you through this. Respite care for you is a very good thing. A caregivers support group could benefit you as well.

Last edited by Gary; 06-28-2009 07:53 PM.

Gary Allsebrook
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Dx 11/22/02, SCC, 6 x 3 cm Polypoid tumor, rt tonsil, Stage III/IVA, T3N0M0 G1/2
Tx 1/28/03 - 3/19/03, Cisplatin ct x2, IMRT, bilateral, with boost, x35(69.96Gy)
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