Hey Malka,
We are the same! I never did pass the red cross test. Could never stand to swim because of breathing.
I can screw my eyes closed, but my mind starts racing and causing me to panic. I took meds just to do a ct scan and that was for a minute? I am thinking of counting or something to keep my mind from freaking me out.
Did they do a whole body thing on you Malka? It makes sense what Markus said about the body. Do you continuously go in and out of the pet "donut" or do you stay still? I know silly questions but the more I know, the better I can handle my mind playing tricks on me.
Debbie

Partial mandibulectomy and neck dissection 2/3/07. T2NOMO.
Had 14 hour operation which included reconstruction of jaw.
Reconstruction failed. Some radiation, no chemo.