How do you do it? I cannot walk into a hospital and lay on a bed and wait for "IT". i HAVE anxieity and cannot make myself do it when it comes down to it. I cry and an so scared and I know that does not help and I am so lucky compared to some, but I cannot do it. How do you do it!Please, I need help- I cannot take anymore!

Partial mandibulectomy and neck dissection 2/3/07. T2NOMO.
Had 14 hour operation which included reconstruction of jaw.
Reconstruction failed. Some radiation, no chemo.