Yesterday scared me - We're 4.5 weeks in IMRT with 1.5 weeks to go and in the middle of watching a movie last night he just began to cry and I mean cry hard.

He SO misses his "real life" - in particular, he so wants to eat something. He says he's so tired of feeling bad (N & V) plus a "feeling" he says he can't explain but he just "feels bad" all over. Because he can't describe it any better I don't even know how to treat it. He also said he feels like his life revolves around tube feedings (the PEG tube went in last week and I hang a feeding every 4 hours X 4 each day.)

All I could do was cry with him, validate that his feelings are normal and reassure him that his quality of life *will* get better.

But it's going to get worse before it gets better, isn't it? I don't know if I can hold on...I feel like I'm falling apart.