Been there, done that, my husband has had radical neck resection on both sides, two surgerys, to add to it all, was a radical misdiagnosis, or just pure neglect.........I really understand your emotions, from day to day, it`s a mystery what I`m going to be.........last night and this morning, I cried non-stop.....I go between anger, rage, and pure pain.........we suffer for those we love, and that`s o.k.............That`s what makes us human, but remember, take care of you because, right now you are very important to your Mom, if I can help, I`m always Here