peace4uall,
Cry, rant, yell etc...you are welcome to do all of that here. Welcome to the site, but sorry that you have come. This is the place to get support and any information you made need. Like David said let us know what your specific concerns/questions are and I'm sure there will be no shortage of comments coming your way. You are not alone. I had the very same thoughts that you are having.

Tim Stoj
60 yr old. Dx Jun 06 with BOT Stage IV. Neck dissesction on 19 Jun 06. Started Tx on 21 Aug 06/completed 33 IMRTs and 3 CT (2 Cisplat & 1 Carboplat) on 5 Oct 06.