Hello, a few weeks back I posted about an upcoming incisional biopsy for leukoplakia on the bottom of my tongue. The surgery is less than two weeks away and I am a mess. I don't know if paranoia has set in or what is happening but I feel like I have neck pain, jaw pain, ear pain, tingling on my tongue, you name it, I am feeling it, or thinking I am feeling it. I know that I just have to wait and see what happens, but I also know that bottom of tongue leukoplakia is the most likely to turn into oral cancer. I don't feel like I can talk to anyone. My husband says we need to wait it out and not to panic, and I just don't feel like I can express my fear to anyone else right now. My 10-year-old is sensing my stress and anxiety and it is making her anxious. I don't do well with waiting. To make it all worse, I am a teacher and I have to face explaining this to my 168 students next week. I know I don't have to tell them everything, but I also need to make them aware that my talking might be harder and strange when I come back. I don't know what I am looking for other than someone to talk to and to just know there are people out there who understand because I am terrified.
Thanks for listening,
Sara