Sorry to hear of your recurrence, as others have said you appear to have the right attitude.
As Bob Marley Said �You never know how strong you are, until being strong is your only choice.�
Brian Stage IV TxN2aM0 HPV+ SCC 38 y.o. male 9/20/13 Sentinel Node Found 12/5/13 Start of 72Gy and 5 bags of Cisplatin 1/21/14 Treatment Ends 1/25/15 1 Yr clear