Hanima, thank you so much for sharing. It takes a lot of courage to open your heart to strangers.

I'm so sorry to hear about your father. As you say, the things you witnessed were horrific, yet you were by his side till the very end. What a beautiful and loving daughter you are. From any level, the blessing you received was the peace of the smile as he passed on. Your father made sure he returned your love and faithfulness by leaving you with the most precious and beautiful last memory.

My wish for you is that as time goes by, your pain is replaced by the loving and happy memories you have of your father. Work hard and be successful, however you define that. Your father was so fortunate and blessed and he is with you always.


SCC Stage IV, BOT, T2N2bM0
Cisplatin/5FU x 3, 40 days radiation
Diagnosis 07/21/03 tx completed 10/08/03
Post Radiation Lower Motor Neuron Syndrome 3/08.
Cervical Spinal Stenosis 01/11
Cervical Myelitis 09/12
Thoracic Paraplegia 10/12
Dysautonomia 11/12
Hospice care 09/12-01/13.
COPD 01/14
Intermittent CHF 6/15
Feeding tube NPO 03/16
VFI 12/2016
ORN 12/2017
Cardiac Event 06/2018
Bilateral VFI 01/2021
Thoracotomy Bilobectomy 01/2022
Bilateral VFI 05/2022
Total Laryngectomy 01/2023