Theresa - yes, it's scary. But also yes, you can get through it. Ask your doctor about a prescription for one of the benzodiazapines - Ativan, Xanax, etc. If you need it you should have it to help you through rads, at least initially.

You can also bring music or an audio book into the room with you. I did it with my iPod and small speakers and it was the thing that got me through it.

The PEG tube is something I didn't have, but grew to wish I did. Get as much counseling from your docs and nurses on whether they think you need it. I found that the radiation produced so many sores in my mouth that swallowing even water was extremely painful. But as with anything, we're all different and your experience could be much better.

Mainly, I know you can get through this. We're here to help in any way we can, you're a member of our family. Ask all the questions you want and PM anyone, we'll be there for you.

Courage!