So sorry to hear this. Will keep you in my thoughts and will be cheering you on. You can do this. You've got to do this. Be strong and when you get weary, that's where the troops here come in.
Do you have a good support team with you? I hope so.
This is another custom island. This one could be used for ads. This spot is one of the best places for ads on your site to be placed. This can be enabled/disabled on a per forum basis.