Jody, you have my personal support, energy and every good vibe I can think of to send your way. This is extremely tough stuff and I know you'll get through it. Talking to some kind of professional counselor, in my opinion, is the absolute best thing you can do for yourself right now. Please keep us posted on this.

I went through years of depression pre-cancer, and therapy and Prozac - at the time the best drug available but now there are many better - was what saved my life.

I am available to talk to you any time you want, and/or to PM here at the forum.

Hang in there, buddy.