I have HPV. And because the painless growth (smallish, but almost wart-like not 100% sure) is at the back of the tongue (like the back on the right) I don't see how it's not oral cancer.

I mean what else would it be? I've had it for 10 days btw.

The idea of getting a biopsy at this age (30s) and then getting the results makes me almost black out thinking about it. To actually receive the results I probably would pass out right then.

What scares the living daylights out of me is that if I have cancer is that it is the mouth - I'm a gagger, have fears of choking etc maybe because of my acid reflux which has always made my throat feel tighter - anyways what scares me is that I'm assuming treatment would mean lots of stuff in mouth which would freak me out. Not to mention the thought of surgery removing my jaw or what not. I'm almost going to pass out writing about all that.

So, I don't know how I'm supposed to feel upbeat. Everyone tells me I'm a hypchndriac, which I am, but it seems like I have all the risk factors/symptoms.