This is certainly what happened to me. Initially all you can see is how you're going to get your loved one through the treatment and you become completely focused on that. It's only now, 2 months after treatment, that the sadness and depression about the loss of our sense of safety and security, the changes to Gordon's health and uncertainty about the future have really settled in for me. I find myself feeling weepy and disconnected from everything at least once every day now, usually in the afternoon. I've gone back to work part-time and have tried to reclaim some of what used to be my own life, but I know things will never be the same for either of us, and it's a big adjustment to make.


Anne - CG to Gordon (59), non-smoker/non-drinker. SCC, BOT, HPV 16+, stage 3. Jan./10 - radical neck dissection to remove 48 lymph nodes, 1 node pos. Apr. 23/10 - finished 35 rad. and 3 cisplatin. Jul. 22/10 - PET scan clear.