Donna, Hi! Haven't written for a good while, but saw your post and had to reply. I can understand your feelings of being let down. All the time, love, and worry you have put toward your Mom. I still think emotionally this beast is sometimes harder for the caregivers. But her smoking again wasn't meant to hurt you in anyway, I'm sure. Being honest, she probably didn't think about what it would do to you. Not that she doesn't love or appreciate you...the "habit" just took over. She's going to have to be the one to want to stop. And hopefully she will when she realizes the consequences. Take care of yourself, and tell your Mom I said Hi. Linda