So, I went to my monthly check up last Friday. My pathology results were in. My tumor was negative for HPV. What? I was really disappointed. I know the chances of a re-occurrence are lower when the cancer is developed from HPV. So, now I'm sitting here thinking, "Crap! So how the hell did I get oral cancer?" What does this mean?

Yesterday my sister and I went tubing down a lazy river near her house. There are a lot of college kids that tube down the river and bring a cooler full of beer. I saw so many people my age smoking cigarettes like it made them look beautiful or something. I wanted to smack them across the face and show them my tongue and skin graft. What the hell? I'm pissed off right now! There they were partying and smoking their stupid heads off and I'm sitting here worrying about having my cancer coming back. Screw them all!