I'll say a prayer for you. I had a hyserectomy about 4 yrs ago for pre-cancerous cells on my cervics. So I know what kind of fear that is. I was older and not planning to have anymore children but it is still very scary. There is a very good forum out there do a search for "hyster sisters" that may be helpful for you. I hope everything goes ok with the white patch. Are they going to biopsy the white patch?