First of all, Scootersmom, you're hilarious! I busted out laughing when I read your reply:) Thank you everyone else for your replies. I am so happy to discover that I am not a crazy paranoid psycho! I have looked into getting some kind of counseling. I feel like I need help dealing with my off the wall thoughts that pop into my head at random moments of the day. Have any of you received counseling? You see, I'm worried that if the counselor has never experienced cancer or any other scary illness, they won't be able to understand my thoughts and feelings. I guess the "big C" has made me realize that, yes, in fact, some day I'm going to die. Of course you always know that through out life, but it's different now. I'm constantly telling my mom and dad to "Drive Carefully. Call me when you get there." Or bugging my boyfriend with "Be careful on the ladder!" or "You're ten minutes late! I thought something happened to you!" I don't just worry about myself now, but I worry a lot more about other people too. My mom asked me a few weeks ago after meeting the chemo and radiation oncologist if I appreciate life more. My response: No, it makes me scared of death more. Of course, since then, I have thought about my response quite a bit. And, I do appreciate life more. I have been taking time each day to do something good for my soul, I guess if that doesn't sound too cheesy. Like, going swimming with my dog or eating ice cream (which I never use to allow myself) I also have been saying "yes" a lot more to things. Allowing myself to experience more than I would have pre-cancer. Anyways, I have rambled on long enough. Thanks again everyone! I'm happy to know that I'm not alone:)